It's been such a long time since I felt anticipation, happiness, fear, accomplishment and an overflowing sense of relief.
Because....
Thinking back, i realised that embarking on this journey has been a tough decision.
Other than considering the amount of years I have to be bonded with NIE, I constantly worry that the intake would be delayed, my chances of studying might be ruin, the stressful lesson observations are not up to standard and the fact that I really don't wish to 'wasted' another year to qualify for another diploma course.
But i finally got through it. *punches fist in the air*
For the first time in my life, I'm actually proud of myself. I didn't need the help of any tuition teacher to push me through, I didn't need to waste any of my mother's saving and I proved it to myself that I could make an impact.
Today, I had a really heart-warming parents-teacher-meeting. Parents who knew that I'm leaving came up to tell me how I made a huge impact in their children's life. Parents who told me that their children questioned them about my decisions.
They were beautiful strangers who were speaking words of encouragement and it made me so motivated to work harder so that I would come back stronger and better.
Never in my life did I receive so much compliments from strangers who are telling me they appreciate my presence. Never in my life did I expect myself, an academically-inclined person to be able to teach and have the chance to educate young lives.
"Take chances, take a lot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end, it always ends up the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn ad grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel,always. Be you, and be okay with it."
Life is about take plunges and making new choices. They may end up in a beautiful dream, or a painful mess.
Eventually we grow with them, we learn and we gain wisdom.
Just don't forget to put on your life vest (:
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