Thursday, August 30, 2012

Rough Thursday




You are beginning to feel worn out.
Then you start to question about the credibility of your occupation, but you realise that this job is actually perfect for you.
You find joy sharing your knowledge, you smile to yourself when you think about them during weekends, you miss school when you have sick leaves, you don't mind spending on presents when you haven't even gotten your first pay and their silly innocent actions totally overwrites anger.


       

11:38 i'm half conscious but this song is keeping me away from bedtime.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Tuesday things

1. Amore Fitness is like my drug. Damn...one workout there is enough to put me in an amazing good mood. Well enough to make me feel like blogging here :)
Ironically, I still have second thoughts before going down because it's not even wise to chug my gym bag,my own personal bag and another one for my student's homework all the way down to Jurong Point.I have like my toiletries, facial products and another set of gym clothes all lumped together with sets of paper and they have to fit inside the train with me. It's a pathetic sight.


2.HOW ABOUT THREE GUM INJECTIONS AND TO SUM UP MY BAD WEEK
Gum injections are the worse things invented..damn.It's like poking needles into your toenails.Bad bad idea. 

3.MAYBE STAYING AT HOME  DOING NOTHING PRODUCTIVE AND NOT BEING ABLE TO WORKOUT FELT WORSE.
In case you never had a wisdom tooth extraction before(soon SOON) and you don't know how deform looking you can end up like.......

Somewhere..close.
Which explains...who in the right state of mind takes picture and post on the net when they are looking like that?

4.Okay happy stuffs next.


Effort is all that counts :)

5. I will start posting on my diet and more personal stuffs next week.Gain a couple of pounds recently but i don't think whining on twitter or on this blog would help :) I'm going to start preparing meals!

6. #OutOffTheDoor because i also wanted to act like some fashionista.


7. I'v got a thing for guys that dress vintage. Camel brown, plastic frames,buttoned up shirts and maybe that combed up fringe....

I'm not too sure about the moustache but the attire hair and the spectacles are......too cute.

Ok don't judge.I'm perfectly normal thinking about guys at this time.Barely 20 raging hormones ha

Till then xx

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

.

It's 12:30am now and i'm still thinking of lesson plans.
I can't blame anyone but myself but anyone for procrastinating throughout this long weekend.
I'm so tired now but i'm not ready to crash yet :(

Feeling so sore throughout and i just wish for someone to


:(

Sunday, August 19, 2012

My day in pixels









My day in length.

After having ice cold unsweetened soya milk with mixed berries granola,she put on a tight white floral dress with outstanding floral prints on and headed out of home feeling mildly embarrassed for being late,as usual.Supposedly supposed to meet one of her closer secondary school friend, Pj at 845am but the time on the watch was half past eight.
Not in the right state of mind,and feeling extremely wealthy,she nearly took a cab but she did not.They met at around 9am in at Outram Park Station but she read something upsetting on twitter.Her plan to rockstar warehouse sales was ruined,they had to stop people from entering the building.It was an unfortunate situation but him being really positive decided they should still try their luck.

The queue went a long way,around 2km from the exact location,flooding all the way to a traffic light.Ironically,she found it humorous to see people who were in their late 10s and early 20s being so spontaneous over a sales which might take up several hours of their youth under the unforgiving,murderous sun.Most of the people were all dressed up,decked from top to toe in high fashion and looked rather painful under the mid morning sun.Trying their luck,they walked all the way down to the front of the queue,looking out for a glimpse of familiar face who would bring them some empty hope.Sadly, she didn't met any but he did but both was too embarrassed to ask for a cut in queue.

Under the blistering sun,they decided to head to town as she wanted to look for a camera.The thoughts of having another camera had cross her mind multiple times these days and she thinks it might be her last love.He left her,having a wider visual about photography...and certainly photos.

Following random intuitions,they went to orchard central and both of them exchanged comfortable conversations throughout the hours.She felt comfortable speaking to him and because they share the same interest in fashion and art appreciation and she was extremely tempted to purchase items from the branded stores in that building.Cheap monday jeans,bralet and doctor martens,she loved stealing glances at them but she didn't feel the need to own them.

They went on to meet another secondary friend of theirs,liu fan. They had ippudo's ramen after she suggested the idea and was appalled by their instant agreements.Spent almost an 45 mintues waiting but the wait didn't feel long. She blabbered throughout the wait,trying to share as much details she could about her new found job. The ramen came delicious but the soup slightly salty to her liking.The pork was too raw for her palate and she felt that the highlight was the tamago that was half cooked inside out.

After the sumptuous and costly meal they decided to head to the heart of the town for a movie. They bought a 410pm time slot for their movie before heading for some shopping at Rockstar.She loves that place and despite their overpriced items,she never found it a problem being loyal towards them.The shop never fails to intensify her craving her beautiful vintage shoes and sneakers and she could swore there wasn't much items she didn't fancy.True enough,it didn't take her long before she and found a pair of mint sneakers which she already had her mind on buying.It was lovely and dirt cheap but unfortunately,they already had their rightful owners. Well,that didn't stop her from buying a piece of lovely top.The top was on her mind since the day she tried few weeks back and she was sure about it.

Unaware of time slipping through their train of thoughts,they hurriedly rushed to the theatre and coincidentally,she met someone familiar at the lift.Marcus was looking skinny.Much skinnier than before and she found it worrying.She couldn't help paying attention to his addidas' geek-liked spectacles and found it rather suitable for him.His brother looked out of place and he didn't cast any glances towards her at all.She noticed his earring too and found it amusing.

The Expandables 2 started 10 minutes ago and she tried to figure out the contents of the movie. There was a little bit of jet li and a little bit of hollywood actors but she couldn't really understand the plot for the first half an hour.Trying hard to hide herself from sleeping,she breathe hard to prevent herself from dozing off too much.The last hour of the movie was rather intense and thank god for ending the long speeches.There was more gun power and the zest of the movie starting coming through.However,they found that the ending was abrupt and rather dull.

The rest of the day was spent at the Scape's flea and she brought a velvet army green overall which fortunately,looked flattering on her.They went Artease and had a pretty bland pudding milktea but a good catch up over the past time and their views on certain people.Afterwhich,she went to browse through cameras at Best Denki and found Cannon G12.The machine was solid and sturdy,and she knows it wouldn't take too long a time before it would become hers.

They went home after a light dinner and they left her before the clock striked 10. It was a well spent day and she had not expected it to be so comfortable with her presence around them.She knows that they are friends to keep and can't help feeling grateful for today.

She is going to meet another friend of hers who just went through the confinement period.It would be a good day tomorrow and she would be playing badminton tomorrow with her cousins in the morning.She realised she had been blogging since 12:15am and her eyelids are feeling the gravity.She goes to bed soon.
She don't think anyone would survive through this chain of text.




Thursday, August 16, 2012

Hi thursday,Here's wednesday.

1. It's extremely fascinating to see the kids when they are halfway through a test feeling bored.
You get a kid emptying his whole pencil case and using every possible stationery to build an army of equipment??Then you will find him take erasers and using them to punch each other.
I had to maintain myself so bad.

Then you find a girl who uses a ruler to balance out different erasers(points at picture)...DIDN'T WE DO THAT WHEN WE WERE YOUNG AND BORED?????

Now,It's pretty sad that our kind of fun lies in all that angry birds and the constant addiction to catch up with networking life.


2.Well,things are definitely  better in class now and occasionally when you ask the class whether they fully understand what you taught and they scream back in unison,'YES MISS TANNNNNN'

You feel better than you just realise you lost 10 pounds...no joke :)

3.Oh have i mention i'm eating the best granola i ever had?It's not sweet at all and the dried berries inside are really..chewy and tangy.

You have to get this.Jurong East's cold storage.
You are welcome and no,no one said it was a sin to eat after 12.Not when you just had a good one hour run :)
Freak it's a sin to not eat this stuff.Urgh DAMN ADDICITVE.

4.Ok sidetrack a little but well i had one of a better weekends last week with my family.Went buffet town for dinner and i had 2 salmon head,tons of veggies and an unforgivable amount of Matcha ice cream.
That place is absolutely good if you like chinese food.They have chilli crab,chinese steam fish,soya bean milk and those chinese brewed soups.
I'm not a big fan except for the teppanyaki vegetables..which may costed only like $3 max?????
Then i had a good day on sunday doing 45 minutes on the treadmill and 1 hour of badass lifting.


5. My MOIST PEACH CUPCAKES WITH BROWN SUGAR FROSTING turned out to be really...moist.
It was like biting into some soggy flour.Too much peach?I'm convinced I need more time with cakes.

Can't deny they look pretty tasty;)

 Made them with dark chocolate chips too..and they were so much better.It was so unfortunate,i only made one.

5.Just another token to make my afternoon better.Sweet colleagues..are hard to come by.



6.Okay i need to get off my blog because i'm not kidding when i say my mouth didn't stop moving for this past 20 minutes.OATS ARE GOOD.CHOKE-FULL OFF FIBRE.

7.OK,i'm getting to bed NOW.
School at 7am is too insane.Damn the jog that gave me so much energy.




Saturday, August 11, 2012

FROM INSTAGRAM

@nazfilm: Haruki Murakami
-"Once you pass a certain age,life becomes nothing more than a process of continual loss.Things that are important to your life begin to slip out of grasp,one after another,like a comb losing teeth.And the only things that come to take their place are worthless imitations.
Your physical strength,your hopes,your dreams,your ideals, your convictions, all meaning, or, then again, the people you love: one by one, they fade away.
Some announce their departure before they leave,while others just disappear all of a sudden without warning one day.And once you lose them you can never get them back. Your search for replacements never goes well.It's all very painful-as painful as actually being cut with a knife."

Well,i just ended my phone call with Amanda and dear,i know you are reading.I apologise.I apologise because i couldn't bring myself to give you damn good advices.I'm worried,worried that you would be hurt like how i am now.I'm so negative to relationships,i don't know when i'll be fully convinced that someone will actually care for me for a very very long time.I want you to be happy,so please be. Infatuation don't come by easily and it's always the sweetest.

It's just random that i happened to go through this post on instagram which make me extremely overwhelmed.I can never understand. I can never understand how humans can come and go within the shortest span of time. I can never understand how easy it is for humans to-
I don't know how to continue anymore now but i can never understand why am so easily attached.I'm not trying to forget,and i think that makes it easier.
I can afford to still dream,yes?

The cold text sinks so deep down that i can feel my toes freezing

Thursday, August 9, 2012

TODAY

I feel icky all over for the whole day. My period is messed up and i'm constantly on the verge of being hungry(for junk ugh) or being annoying.
Nothing worse when it's the time of the month. You feel fat,ugly,deprived, bloated,heavy and back to fat. Okay.I should stop.

Today should be alot of fun if i had some activities planned out but i had to catch up on the pile of papers waiting for my red ink.Now that i'm working full-time,it feels mildly awkward when i get such a long holiday and the fact that i'm wasting it is just so.wasted.

Well,tomorrow would be good.I'm going to start preparing my own meals and do some jogging.My cousins are coming over so we are baking moist peach cupcakes with brown sugar frosting for my uncle's birthday :) It would be lovely playing with dough and i'll squeeze time for some strength training and hopefully i can meet my secondary amigossss at night to chill.

Alright now i'm gonna go cuddle my bolster and finish up Norwegian Wood
bye


YESTERDAY


 Sir Benedict 
The mash potato was good.It was topped with velvety creamy mushrooms.
Didn't had a chance to try the eggs


 Caesar salad with romaines,poached egg,bacons and croutons sprinkled with generous amount of cheese
Well,not impressive either.


 WHY I LOOK LIKE MALAY WEARING SARONG IN THIS PICTURE

Dinner yesterday night was @holland village's hatched.It was suppose to be a birthday celebration but i ended up spending more time catching up with jing and amanda. Even though i have the big sista swag around this two midgets, i'm always really comfortable around them. We don't seem to run out of topics but maybe it's because i don't seem to be able to shut up ha :)

Anyway,I had some Tortilla dish.It was spanish style eggs with capsicum, onions and potatos on a slice of bread.(Figured out that was the healthiest i could get ha) I didn't bother capturing that because it looks practically like those that came straight out of your pan at home with slight burnt areas over it.
The dinner was really cheap but i definitely do not feel that the standard of the food is worthy for another visit .Even so,the ambience is good for some chilllllin'

After some substantial amount of gossiping and sharing, we headed to daily scoop for ice cream.Their dark chocolate ic didn't disappoint :)


The daily scoop
43 Jalan Merah Saga,
Chip bee Gardens
#01-78


Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Tuesday things

1. I miss baking.

2.Coconut kissed granola with maple syrup this saturday.Who's in for the recipe? :)

3.Well i had this two days full teacher preparatory programme and it was hell yeah awesome haha Let's not mention about the delicious complimentary egg tarts we had and the captivating French lecturer. The trainees there are like coolies too. Saw some pretty fashionable ones,heard some interesting stories that happened at other schools and we literally could relate to one another even though we might just met each other for only less than 10 hours.
They make me anticipate for NIE training.
A year later :/

4.I signed up for a half marathon. 11th November heh heh heh 

5.I'm almost recovered from my heartbreak LOL ok i'm good and no more stupid lovesick feelings...............................Relationships?maybe just with those annoying brats in my class.

6.I'm back to exercising regularly. My pool's operating again and my hair roots are not gonna thank me after a month.

7. Think everyone depressed should exercise. It clears your soul really. Better than the stupid love song by taylor swift.

8. Have anyone mention this week is HOLIDAYS FOR ME?

9.I want to do navel soon


But i'm so afraid that it might turn mouldy and start to menstruate non stop.
How on earth is that piercing gonna be cleaned and changed?!!
The tattoo in the picture is such a beauty too :)




I need you but I'm terrified so here's a letter.


Chanced upon some local talent.
Amazingly cute ha

I believe in stories that end with a kiss, cos I miss
Every inch of those supple lips that caress mine with ease

Now all of my desires can be said
with a word as its only you in my head

Its that lesson ill never learn, hope these things can take a turn for the better
Maybe someday you'll realise, I need you but I'm terrified so here's a letter.

I've been trying to place my hand on the other pillow beside me
How we'd squeeze so willingly as if we were about to freeze.
And it dawned upon me, though the space beside me is yours to keep,
but whats the use

Now all of my desires can be said
with a word as its only you in my head

Its that lesson ill never learn, hope these things can take a turn for the better
Maybe someday you'll realise, I need you but I'm terrified so here's a letter.

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Norwegian Wood

"I guess i'v been waiting so long I'm looking for perfection.That makes it tough."


"Waiting for the perfect love?"

"No even I know better than that.I'm looking for selfish-ness.Perfect selfishness.Like,say I tell you I want to eat strawberry shortbread.And you stop everything you'r doing and run out and buy for me.And you come back out of breath and get down on your knees and hold this strawberry shortbread out to me.And I say I don't want it any more and throw it out of the window.That's what i'm looking for"

"I'm not sure that has to do with anything to do with love," I said with some amazement.

"It does,"she said."You just don't know it.There are times in a girl's life when things like that are incredibly important."


--Murakami

Friday, August 3, 2012

Sup new career?

Hey hey hello hello
It's such a struggle to start with something interesting but i just felt like it.

If you don't already know,i'm teaching.
Day 1 was horrendous. I was literally thrown to a group of monkeys who made their way to the school and some kid started crying for absolutely no good reason before trying to disfigure another girl with his flying pen.

It didn't help when half my class was either malay/indian and their names were harder than my primary school's spelling test.I had such a good time getting laughed at for giving people weird names.

Next,i had to take p.e in my tight chino pants.Fast forward to the part when i couldn't even make it for the dismissal and they had to run after the school bus.


Well,classes are getting better because i'v been screaming like a mad woman on loose,classes are getting better because i'm better than yesterday and classes are getting better because i have got supportive colleagues all around.

I guess the fact that i'm usually such a mother figure kinda fit into the whole situation haha
I love the way they chant my name like i'm their second bieber and how they tell me i'm prettier than the previous teacher.YES HAHAHAHA

All's good really.
Just need another day to wrap up this week.


GET IT GIRL

ah,animations are the cutest things haha