FEBRUARY 2013

Loving this video. For the many smiles and laughters at the very end, the beautiful sky with moving clouds at the start and how it warms my heart when i recall last December.
It would be a dream come through to go to this place with someone special, cuddle in the cold , look at people playing with snowballs and just chilling on the street.
Israel may seem to be such a boring country but the serenity of this place is magical.
Winter is.  Travelling is.

Maybe it's true that at different stages of our life, we experience different kind of happiness.
When you were 13,you enjoyed the thrill of playing on the see-saw near school and eating fast food after remedial.

When you were 14, you enjoyed the moments you spend crushing on boys and changing to the coolest pencil case(meaning biggest one filled with colour pens lol don't laugh haha)  so that you could show off in school.

When you were 16, you had your first boyfriend and you forgot how to stop staring at the phone.You think of every possible way to hide your relationship and  multiple possibilities to make him happy and got yourself the cheesiest 'couple items'???? You loved hard, fell hard and grew stronger.

When you  were 18, you started to have more time to yourself, you started to realise who you wanted to be and then you started being more self-aware and self-concious about who and what was not that important. Freedom was just nearing and you tried to break your curfew once you had the opportunity to.

When you were 20, you had your first overseas trip with your classmate and even though it was short, it was an unforgettable experience and you started realising that nothing is more important than people around you who cares. There was submissions and reports but you gain rapport and even found out that the cliques you have was made up of beautiful people who makes you so comfortable to hang out with.

Now at 21, it feels perfect. you are still fit and healthy to skip against the wind, to kickass in marathons and to attend all your favourite exercise classes.
 You able to hang out with your friends till 2 a.m in the morning and get away with a few excuses, you are financially stable, you grew closer with your family, you bitch with your mother about boys,you grew strong enough to be your family's pillar and you are  independent enough to catch a movie by yourself.
You enjoy your job and so do you enjoy the weekend. You enjoy the feeling of being able to pursue what you love and you know where to head to for your future.

I can't imagine where am I at 30, or even surviving at 30 but i think it might be true, that I will still experience happiness because I feel happiness everywhere.
I feel happiness when I give love, I feel happiness when i see couples passing  me, I feel happiness when my students improve, I feel happiness just being healthy and I feel happiness when you feel happy.

So even though i just said 30 might be cool, 21 is still the golden year. I'm pretty sure about this.
Well, January was awesome. Now it's kickass 2013.


Anyway Israel, i'll be coming for you, even if there's no cuddling. I'm going (:

I think i'm in love

Things I Will Never Understand

1. Why does people want to get tattoo of fishes on their body
2. The difference between the term 'jogging' and 'running'
3.How some girls' post the way they stuff cream into their mouth almost everyday and still have thighs half my size
4. How easy i always manage to gain chubs
5. My sickening craving to bake food but leave them lying in my fridge the next few days.
6. Negativity
7. Why do I feel 15 again when i see your familiar face
8.Why weekend always feel like a passing wind
9. My constant desire to skip when i'm happy

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I MISS YOU

 

       

             

  

 

 Everyone has their own way of escapism,and i am rather sure you are one of mine.
Yes,2013 came before i could leave one of the cliché post and make another i-am-going-to-lose-fats resolution.
The start of 2013 was teary and never did i expect myself to attend a funeral on the morning of my new year.
Nevertheless, the pain was like a wake-up call. It made me want to scream at every self-pitying friend on Twitter that never fail to tweet about how they are upset over some stupid little incident. It made me want to tell all my friends that life is unpredictable and they should stop saying because 'I'm afraid..'

It's almost unreal that i'm going to turn 21 this year. Even though I don't think it will impact me because my daily schedule has already made me an 'adult' who needs to constantly hold back the 16-year old wild angel in me,it's hard to avoid the fact that my responsibilities are increasing.

Every weekend, i am constantly screaming to myself when i clean up the house.
I miss the days when i could just study in my room and wait for my mother to give me my weekly allowance. I miss the days when i am able to fall in love so easily with a boy,without the need to know that a failed relationship is heart-wrenching.
I miss the days when i would be teased in class and it would end up being awkward and the class would just laugh together.

Now,working is so hectic i think i might just forget what's laughter.
Now, all my mum and I talk about is about money(i rather she ask me about my results).
Now, i forgot how it feels to be pampered.
Now, I worry about how i am going to survive for the month when it's just too embarrassing to ask my mum to lend me some cash after too-many-celebrations.
Now, i worry about how to make sure that i am setting a good example and how the rest of the world is going to judge me as a teacher.

It's never going to be easy, I knew it from the start when she taught me to be strong.
But she always taught to be independent, to be self-contended and to be a person who is giving and loving.

Life has became increasingly challenging over time and the Korea trip only made realise how lucky am i to have of supportive family . A bunch of nagging aunties who might never stop being annoyingly caring, to have cousins whom never fails to make fun out of the boring tour schedule and the amazing supermother who paid for my whole trip.

These are people whom will still love me even if my eyebrows look weird without the eyebrow shadow, people whom i am perfectly comfortable prancing about in my a baby pink heartshape pjs, people whom i can jump and act retarded when the snow was too beautiful and people whom might see my worse but will stay for the rest of my life.

2012 was one of the best year. Think i will make 2013 even better.
Live unrestrained, make someone smile every single day.

xx

Can't contain my tears

Because i am going to work doubly hard for you Mrs Z.
R.I.P
We will miss you.

31.12.12