I don't know what to do

Have you ever felt that way?
When you are perfectly in love but you just take everything way too seriously?
How you can't stop thinking that nothing will eventually be okay?
It's so complicated this thing love is.
You hate it, you dislike it yet it pesters you and sticks on you like a bloody leech.

Sometimes I really wished I was a little more naive, a little more insensitive.
I wished I wouldn't be able to feel so attached to someone, I wished I wouldn't wish on empty streets, I wish beautiful illusions wouldn't appear at the back of my head before bed.
I wish I was all that less emotional.
So that I wouldn't get bruised but little remarks, so that I wouldn't get overwhelmed by small surprises and make big dreams out of them.

I hate weakness in my bones, insecurity flowing through me and all that tears that stings the eyes to my soul.
I don't know what to do.

What can I do?