This moment

I'm feeling thankful,

for having such a wonderful mum.
for having such wonderful colleagues.
for being strong and blessed with good health.
for being able to eat,laugh,sing,listen,touch,feel,taste and smell.
for being so amazingly positive and appreciative of life.
for being loved by people whom i may not even realised.
for being able to bake,cook and prepare food for people i love.
for being able to make a change in a random stranger's life.
for being just myself every single day.

Tomorrow's going to be better.
Happy thursday xx

Tuesday Morning

The last thing i want,is to be insecure about myself.
It just comes back,just like how things went last summer.

GFD

 Minced chicken,shittake mushroom,chilli bean paste,grilled tofu & a dash of oyster sauce.

 Chopped garlics with carrots and sprouts.

 Sambal stingray.

AMANDA Y U NO MAINTAIN HAHAHAHA

WHEN I'M STILL FUCKING BLOATED AFTER AN HOUR OF BRISK WALKING AFTER DINNER...................................................................

i'm not kidding about how awesome our food tasted.

Dinner was priceless today.We whipped up some garlic bean sprouts,grilled sambal stingray,minced chicken tofu and paired it with soft brown rice.

I'm not lying when i say i'm so glad to meet them both.

Really two of the best i ever had who would go through brown rice and bean sprouts with me and actually find them tasty.Meeting me for a marathon this sunday because they appreciate running and to actually buy me an apron while shopping bec they thought it reminded them of me.

I'm not asking for more in life.

Happy pop's day

Random things on my mind

Belly piercing 

I think i always found them to be really cute and alluring with crop tops and a flat stomach.

Don't judge.

 Food Photography
Not really into pictures of humans,animals but food.

 Kitchenware
Which brings me to kitchenware and my fetish over wooden anything.
Look who's bringing vintage from her wardrobe to the kitchen.

Running

My 12k's on sunday and i miss running more than anything.

New hairdo
Hurts to know that i can never play with loud colours soon.

been quite awhile since i was attached to a chinese song.

X

It's almost two years since i had a real relationship and i think i'm beginning to forget how i feels like to be in love.To cry over silly tiffs,to share kisses under the block and to feel like spending all your time baking for a guy i'm crazy over.The drama just reminded me how i used to cry every night aching for a love that was never meant to mine,to come out with thousand excuses to win back a guy that forgot about our one year anniversary and to actually have thoughts of building a family.

Now that i'm much older,i'm being to feel that i might never ever get to feel that special ever again.Would i still do silly things like hiding behind the letterbox kissing a guy because i couldn't bear to let him go home?Would i still smile to myself in bed?Would i still sing cheesy songs and cry myself in bed?

....that first love.My first relationship.The feelings will never be replaced.

RUNNING

I'm sure everyone close to me should know i hurt my legs a few weeks back and no,it's not recovering.
There's just this muscle spasm whenever i try to chase after a bus or walk a little damn faster during work.

Not to mention i'll be having my first 12km marathon in two weeks time and i can't even go for 2 miles now.

I THINK MARATHONS ARE MY CURSE.THE FIRST TIME WHEN I SIGNED UP,I HAD TERRIBLE CRAMPS.FOR THE SECOND TIME,MY MOTHER THREW AWAY MY BIB AND NOW I'M HAVING THIS MUSCLE SPRAIN.



THIS IS LIKE THE WORSE FEELING EVER.
NOT BEING ABLE TO WORK IS FINE.NOT BEING ABLE TO SWIM IT'S FINE.BUT NOT BEEN ABLE TO JUMP?I CAN'T DO KICKBOXING,MY FAVOUITE LATINO CLASS AND I'M SO AFRAID THE MUSCLES IN MY LEGS WOULD TURN INTO FATS.
No,it doesn't help especially when i like everything to be done as  fast as possible within my means.I eat fast,speak fast and walk fast but now?I can't lift or carry too heavy stuffs,I can't chase after buses,I have difficulties jumping and i can't do my favourite sport ever.I FEEL WEAK AND POWERLESS.

CAN I HAVE MY LEG BACK PLEASE?

fuck,this font looks so funny when i caps lol

Of food and scenery

Of humans.

I could have swore the trip was unexpectedly good.Perfect weather,perfect opportunities,perfect activities and definitely the perfect companions.

Just too perfect that it makes the heart cringe when the 3 days ended so abruptly and you realised that maybe you still didn't feel homesick enough.

I had my first horse ride,my first elephant ride,my first flying fox experience,my first table tennis match,my first snorkelling trip and the last overseas trip with my polytechnic friends.

I never felt so comfortable with people for a very very long time.Comfortable of baring my skin,comfortable of looking hideous out of the swimming pool with dried hair,comfortable with moaning when i was nauseous in sea,comfortable of snorting just to muffle up my laughters,comfortable with sharing my sexual habits(yes yes yes) and really just being myself for 3 days.

The photos are definitely not my most prettiest sight,but if you look close enough,i wasn't hiding myself in any of them.

That's more than enough isn't it?

I'm not lying when my heart still hurts now because i'm certain i will never the same anymore.