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 Travelling.

Three months back, i thought i found a companion. Cozy cafes, books, warm drinks, deep conversations, coffee, photographs and maybe a new found friendship. We would enjoy long walks together, we could depend on one another, we would give each other space but we would still remain as friends.

I thought i really could have a platonic friendship with a man. 

But it didn't work out. 

Sometimes very often, i wonder how do a guy feel exactly if a girl asked them out for a movie? Will they think differently about the girl? Will they expect something from the girl?

Is it even possible for a pair to hang out without any slightest interest in one another?

I find myself holding back yet too very often to ask a boy out. Even when i'm simply enjoy going out with him or the fact that i need a companion for dinner, i find it almost impossible to ask a guy out alone without feeling worried that it might give him the wrong idea.
Is it the society or my mentality?

Well,I find myself feel quite lonely these days. Maybe it's the sudden burden from work and the fact that i can't really combat workload when i'm at home. There's either too much nagging, distractions or the fact that the bed is just one arm's length away from my work desk.

Yet when work ends and i want to look for a place or maybe a person to accompany me to hang out with, there's just..no one.

Or maybe i don't know who to approach.

And this brings me to the inspiration of this post. I love the London during fall. How the orange clover-shaped leaves scatters on the pavement. How beautiful the houses look in the pictures. The empty pavements and windy mornings.......

Travelling. 

How i wished i could do it together with a friend. I don't know who but just someone who would jog with me around the park during dawn, have a sumptuous breakfast before we head out to the cities. We would take lots of photos on the way. He/she would accompany me to ransack Topshop and we will have a slice of cheesecake on the way to the vintage store right down Pierce street. We would sing katy perry's 'Fireworks' or maybe the Adele's 'Set fire to the rain'. Then we would take more pictures and  go to the parks to look at beautiful people strolling with their dogs. Before the sunsets we would catch a glimpse of the orange sky filled with red streamers and talk about the places we would go during our next holiday. There will be subways, cheap street food, bargaining, lots of long walks and  some local band performances at the pub when the night falls. 

2 weeks. 

The trip will take no less than 2 weeks. We will come back with a younger heart and a stronger friendship.

I love daydreaming to realities that are going to open up soon.

Soon.

Any takers?